I stumbled across this today and thought 

It was too good not to share!

 I hope it can encourage just the right person who needs to hear it!

Written by Rebecca Ann. 2/8/2019.

In my news feed today I read a status by a lady that said, “I hate my life and never wanted to die as much as I do now. Please Brothers and Sisters pray for me.” I read as many were giving her advice in the comment section on what she should do from “you need to snap out of it” to “you should go see a medical professional” to “are you eating according to the dietary laws and keeping the feasts and Sabbath properly?” I thought my reply to her might also benefit another that has ever shared her sentiments.

Moses- "If this is how you are going to treat me, put me to death right now...and do not let me face my own ruin." Numbers 11:15

Job- "Why then did you bring me out of the womb? I wish I had died before any eye saw me." Job 10:18

David- "What gain is there in my destruction, in my going down into the pit?" Psalm 30:9

Elijah- "I have had enough, YAHUAH...Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors." 1 Kings 19:4

Jonah- "Now, O YAHUAH , take away my life, for it is better for me to die than to live." Jonah 4:3

The Disciples- "Teacher, don't you care if we drown?" Mark 4:38

Paul- "We despaired even of life. Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death." 2 Cor. 1: 8-9

Jesus/Yeshua: "My EL, my EL, why have you forsaken me?" Matt. 27:46

What I’m saying is...... you’re in good company. It seems all the greats may have felt your sentiments at one time or another.

I have to say in these moments I have found some comfort in 

Psalm 88. 

While most Psalms start out with some kind of desperate plea - 

"How long, O YAHUAH? Will you forget me forever? - they normally end in praise or at least with a little hope: "I will sing to YAHUAH, for he has been good to me." (Ps. 13:1,6) Not so in Psalm 88. It starts with a plea for help -"Day and night I cry out before you. May my prayer come before you; turn your ear to my cry." At the end I found no song for praise, for hope, or even for a teensy bit of light. The writer describes YAH’s wrath "sweeping" over him and YAH’s "terrors" destroying him, surrounding him, completely engulfing him. And then vs. 18: "You have taken my companions and loved ones from me; the darkness is my closest friend."

I've actually thought at certain times in my life God must have put Psalm 88 in His Word just for me. I mean, there has to be a reason right?! Why is it even there? I found my answer incredibly profound. Wait for it.....It's in the Bible because it's true. Ta da! Brilliant right? 😉 The truth is, it reflects how we feel sometimes. I suppose it's one thing to love God when we think of Him as the One who binds up our brokenness. But what if He is the One who allows, even participates, in the breaking?

I read a story once about bummer lambs. These are lambs that have been orphaned by a mother ewe that dies or they've been rejected because the mother sheep can't produce enough milk for multiple offspring. 

These "bummer lambs" will bow their heads over and have been revealed to have a "broken spirit" due to being abandoned and rejected. All to often, these needy, vulnerable, precious lambs simple die. Their little spirits break, and they give up the will to live. The only ones who do survive, the ones who find strength to overcome their mother's rejection, are the ones who get taken in and cared for by the shepherd. 

The shepherd will actually take them into their home, surround them by people who nurture them, fed them, watch over them, and protect them. The shepherd will even hold the lamb on his chest to let him feel his heartbeat. Bummer lambs when returned to the pasture are the most blessed of all the sheep because they are the most personally and intimately cared for by the shepherd. They develop a relationship with the shepherd that other sheep can't even dream of. And when the shepherd calls to the flock, guess who runs to him first? The bummer lambs! Why? Because they know his voice best, and they have been held close to his heart. It's not that he loves them more; it's just that they've been broken enough to let that love in

....down deep.

Hang in there, gal! Sometimes we just need to spend a bit more time nestled in the arms of our loving Shepherd. My prayers are with you!

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew‬ ‭11:28-30‬ ‭